“I just want to know where I should stand before I take a dive.”

I thought I was doing myself a favor by being careful with my actions but I realized that I already took a plunge way before that. What I saw and perceived got into me. Because when a wonderful horizon presents itself right in front of you, you would always want to see more and you will make your way through. And how it made you feel makes you want to have a portion of that beauty to take home with you and hope that it lasts.

 I know I got myself to blame for half of everything and for immersing myself into this unfamiliar territory. Waves draw me into places and it makes me sink deeper and deeper each day. Sometimes, I want to go back to where I was and wonder if you would ever gently accompany me. I can barely swim, you already know that. Struggling to survive every single day is exhausting but until today, I know that I still want to stay afloat and patiently wait. 

With every mistyped words... deep sighs.. discreet glances.. forced smiles and the salvaging grin...
..you are always in-between.


Funny how that seems to be so obvious and me unseen.

Beacons in the Evening Sky...

Venus and Jupiter, two of the brightest planets in the night sky have been putting up a great view lately. It was actually pointed out by someone one night. I’ve been out almost every night then for a month and I can’t help but notice it. I learned that these two planets are bound to move closer to each other (until they pass another and part) and is seen at its best during this month. But I learned about this a little too late. That is when bedazzling nighttime walks in the park are over and just two days after I got back from an overnight camp at Mt. Batulao. Damn! I could have stayed up all night on top of that mountain.

Although learning about this phenomenon a little too late gives me some sort of regret until now, it definitely served as my beacons in the evening sky. Like a perfectly choreographed fireworks display, it was an especially stunning evenings which also taught me patience, acceptance and gave me hope. Evening at its greatest brilliance that I will never.ever.forget. 

Salvaged.

It’s this foolishness that helps me get through the day. This reminds me that somehow, something like this isn’t so bad at all. You taught me that being carefree is alright and that I should always be perfectly fine all by myself… just a little bit better with someone else.

I am salvaged once again. And you are the culprit.

The Dimwits are Back!

It seems that more and more people are imitating stand up comedians' taste on sarcasm. The stereotypes thought they appear smarter that way. <-- Definitely not cool. 


Way before that became a fad, it's easy to identify stupidity. Annoyingly stupid questions can always be answered with discreet sarcasm. The dimwits wouldn't even know when you're delivering one. Which, I think, is way funnier. 


Bitchin' mode: ON